I'm FREE!!!

Tom learned today that he has NO NEW CANCER.

So, I can let go now.

I have been feeling like shit because we split at such a time... I couldn't quite convince myself that it was the best time for him, even though it was the best time for his kids... and to hell with what I've been feeling, right? Because I know if he was sick I would have been all over the place making a nuisance of myself to take care of him.

I miss his family, I miss his children, I miss the unsteadiness of his voice and the smell of his deodorant. I miss the possibilities we had. I miss him eating at my dining room table, dozing on my couch. I miss the view from his bedroom window, watching for him to come home on Sundays.

But I can let go now.



I should let go now.