Happy Turkey Day!

NOTE: OTHER PREVIOUS ENTRIES TO BE ADDED AS TIME ALLOWS; LIVE ENTRIES BEGIN HERE, Gobble gobble.
"When are you going to come down
When are you going to land
I should have stayed on the phone
I should have listened to my old man."

--Goodbye Yellow Brick Road, Elton John

Great Thanksgiving. Got caught up with family. Didn't see my daughter most of the night... in fact, I was the only one of my cousins who kept checking on the kids. Dammit, I had a childproof family here all along!! :)

I was ironing tonight when I hit a brick wall. It's hard to explain.... and it had nothing to do with Thanksgiving I think... but maybe it did, having all that family in the same place at once....

My dad threw me a couple of his shirts to iron, and I used to iron his crap all the time in high school, after my mom died, or maybe my mom made me do it before she died, that would be like her, LOL, I just don't remember... I don't know. You can see where this is going.

SHIT. I was just ironing this stupid shirt of my dad's and I haven't ironed seriously in ages, and then all of a sudden a Cult song is playing on my computer and I break down and I don't even know why, and at first I'm thinking it's because I used to be good at ironing and now I suck. Then I remember my first potential boyfriend was Brian Zahler and I don't even remember how I met him and I never really liked him and I know I've never been to his house but my parents used to tell me he traveled a long way on his bike to see me.... well, he gave me a Cult tape. I remember him playing it for me on my radio that was plugged in the driveway one summer while I was washing my dad's cars.... and he came to see me once when it was icy out ... like it is now...

I still have it. That Cult tape Brian Zahler gave me. I was like, 12 or 13. I remember thinking I'd like to marry someone higher up in the alphabet so I could sit in the front of class (being a Z myself). LOL

Shit like this is flooding back. In bits and in waves.

I feel like such an outsider here.

I don't even remember how to iron en'at so good. Geez o man. I need to find me an ice scraper fast. I'm hating this.

My dad told me tonight to go back to Florida if I hated it so much. I just might! I start work on Monday; it better be a damn good job for me to stay.

"Understand the things I say
Don't turn away from me
Cause I spent half my life out there
You wouldn't disagree
Do you see me, do you see
Do you like me, do you like me standing there
Do you notice, does anyone care."

Ode to My Family - The Cranberries