RIP SWeeT, 2006-2009

Shortly after my last post, I was syncing my phone, and my computer just signed off. So long. It's not you, it's me.

I want to blame it on Zoe playing Webkinz, or some electrical problem in my house that MUST be under my (expired) warranty, but really, I'm a freaking dumbass for never backing up my files. All drives will fail, and I am yet another idiot that ignored all the suggestions to back up as I shut down programs, thinking I would get to it tomorrow.

All my photos from the past three years, gone.

Zoe's spring concert. Campfires in the back yard. Jacob's first Easter. Vacations and Christmases and everyday things. Jacob BEING BORN.

All gone.

I'm taking a little solace in the fact that I can possibly recover the pictures... to the tune of roughly $1,000. It is worth it to me, really, the next time I come across that kind of cash. It's not a long shot, it's actually something I WILL do. But for now, my dining room picture frames will remain empty, a project I've been slowly working on, and I'm going to hurry and fill them with shit just so I don't have to look at them every day and think about what an asshole I am for NOT BACKING UP MY SHIT.

This was really devastating to me. I've cried and imbibed quite a bit to survive the loss of three years worth of my kids' childhoods. I've got my computer back, a clean slate, and it's going to take some time to get it back to where I recognize it. Lots of rehab. And if I can never get those pictures back, I'll have some years to think up the perfect excuse when my kids ask about first grade. Or being born.

My old drive was named "SWeet." My new drive is "SWeeT SuCCeSSoR." Never again will I go a week without saving my precious memories.

I suggest you back up your shit, NOW. And if you have a few photos of my kids from the past few years, please send them along. :(